Happy Valentines Day to everyone,

This is a hard day for my family and I right now.  My first husband died six months ago today. And it is so hard to deal with.  It is my sons 23rd birthday and I know it is going to be very hard on him. I have two children from my first husband. and they are both having a terrible time dealing with his death.  and my two children from this marraige loved their Uncle Steve too. So, I am writing this in memory of Steve.

You will always be a part of my heart and my life.  You were my first love and always my love, Even though we had our differences I have always loved you.  And when you hurt, I hurt too. but I couldn't show it.  I didn't want you to feel any worse from it. Now that you are not on this earthly plane with me I can still feel you near.  I just wish that somehow we could have gotten our acts together and stayed with each  other. But that is water under the bridge to no longer return.  Just to let you know that you are in my thoughts daily and in my prayers. And I hope that even tho I wasn't with you physically, I was there in my heart.  May your after life be filled with joy and happiness and those who have passed on before are there with you now holding you up.  I love you so much....your pattigirl